Jude and Noah, There's so much in my heart whenever I think of you two that it's nearly impossible to sort it out into words. You won't possibly understand how much I love you until you hold your own baby in your arms for the first time. It's absolutely indescribable. It's like gravity: once you start falling off the cliff the speed only accelerates. That's how I love you both--with ever increasing speed and depth!
Jude, you were our first and I'm afraid you were something of a lab mouse. We had NO IDEA what we were doing when we had you. Even basic things like "don't leave the house without the diaper bag," took us nearly a year to grasp. We were utterly clueless but just as utterly transfixed with love for you! You opened a flood gate of emotion, spurred us on the fast-track to maturity in so many areas, and gave so many aspects of life new depth and complexity. Most importantly, you made us a family!
Noah, you have no idea how much we needed you and neither did we. When you came along, your lonely brother finally had a best friend and co-conspirator. He giddily stacks trucks on your round little belly every chance he gets! Jude loves playing with you on your aquatic mat, crawling into bed with you when you're taking a nap, and kissing you on the head when you're hungry or fussy. You've transformed him into a big brother and that's HUGE! And you've made us a dream team, four crazy smiths with disheveled hair (you'll get some soon, I promise!) and wrinkly clothes who LOVE LOVE LOVE each other!
I want you both to know how happy I am every day to open our front door after a long day at work and see your bright faces. You bring so much joy to your daddy and my lives, it's ridiculous. We do crazy things we never imagined attempting before just to see you smile.
You both can drive us crazy too, when you scream and cry in coordinated unison, causing the dogs to howl and our heads to pound. But it's ok because we just tickle you until you pee your pants. Literally. :)
I can't get enough of you two. I want to capture every moment, every joy and momentary sorrow, so I don't miss a thing. I'm sure you already know that, though, considering the thousands of pictures I've put on Facebook.
I thank God always for showing me such favor that he blessed me with the weighty and joyful responsibility of raising you two, precious souls. May he reveal himself to you powerfully, filling you with his spirit, that you may delight in him all the days of your life.
I love you so, my two amazing boys!